Wednesday, September 15, 2004
I talk to Davina today and she told me my grandpa is not doing so well. I have spoke with him a few days ago on my cell phone and I started to cry, he sensed it in my voice and said, " don't cry, your going to make me cry. I couldn't help it, I was trying to hold back my tears, but the emotions I was feeling inside, just had to come out. My grandpa started to cry on the phone with me and I told him that I love him and I wasn't ready for him to go. He said he wasn't ready to go either. It's just so hard, to deal with this, but I have been keeping it all balled up and it's starting to build up. I love my grandpa so much and he has always been there for us. He told me he was in no pain and that he loves me and wanted me to give Mianna and Rich a big kiss and hug. He is always concerned about us, and he did ask how we fared with hurricane Frances. That made me stop crying and we started to reminisce on how we had weathered all the typhoons on Guam. O man I’m crying now so bad and I’m at that point where I just have that deep burning in my heart.
I guess all I can do is just keep my memories alive in my head and to be thankful that I have had such a wonderful time with my grandpa. I have so many memories that stand out in my head. I still remember times when he would give Davina and me a roll of quarters to play packman at the bowling alley on Guam. I have so many memories that I'm thankful for and so many times that I wish I was just a little closer to home. I can't even pick out one single memory that is my favorite because all of the times with him were the BEST. Going to the movies every Saturday and watching the road pass under us, because my grandfather had a hold in floor of his old station wagon. He use to play Morris Code and I would just sit there and listen to the beeping and think how smart he was for being able to decode and under stand such a technique. I truly do believe he is such a geniuses and I'll try to pass on all that have in me about him. He will never die in my heart and Ill always keep him there.
I sent home some pretty flowers for both Grandma and Grandpa.
Posted by virgi at 1:51 PM